Rambling on..................

I'm sitting in a peaceful place. Trees on three sides and open fields in front of me. The wind just makes it better, blowing coolly across my face, making the leaves rustle in an oh so perfect way. The sparrow chirps, the occasional cuckoo calls and every once in a while a myna's song. Bliss. Who wouldn't be happy here?? Well me.

I am calm, peaceful and at ease, but not happy. I see myself falling apart at the seams. The threads of whatever sanity I had left are slowly coming loose. But nothing can hurt me here and now, because here, I am alone, truly alone. Away from friends, family or anybody I know, in the peaceful embrace of nature, which though soothing,cannot calm my troubled mind. I know, I don;t know. Why have I come here?? when I could have been in my room, or someone else's room, in class, in the canteen or anywhere else. But I am here, and whatever it was that pulled me to this place, I am thankful for it. About time for a cigarette break.

Ahhh.

THat done. Now what was I getting to?? Yeah. Every experience in life counts. Everything you say, do or think, every place you go, its all a part of who you are, your identity, your persona. Ive been aching to say this.

I have regrets, loads of them, but still, everything I've done makes me who I am. And I am, if not proud, but at least satisfied with one thing, who I am, regardless of what I want to be, what I could've been and all those other things.



Now playing: Pink Floyd - Atom Heart Mother: Father's Shout/Breast Milky/Mother Fore/Funky Dung/Mind Your Throats Please/Remergence
Now Reading : Watchmen by Alan Moore.

Now Feeling : Sleepy.