I got em Smoky Room Blues

This post was actually meant to be a self critical post, but sadly it isn't. Instead its sad, very sad. Sorry I was trying to be ominous there. Nothing ever lives up to expectations, never. It might exceed, it might do the opposite of exceed, but never totally live up to it. Take this post for instance, what it could be and what it will be are two completely different things. You just witnessed the death of a thread of thought.

Im depressed, down, and so on. I write from a smoke filled room, now clearing up, because I'm out of cigarettes. If I were an ole nigger from the ole South, I'd be 'singin Them Ole Relationship Blues', but I'm a Kashmiri from Bombay, so im just sulking, and writing in this here blog. To cut the long story short, I was dumped, and I'm down. Well, who wouldn't be. Its just that it was so unexpected, both the time, and the person. It sort of shakes your confidence on people, makes you vulnerable and you end up missing her a lot more, than you ever did. I end up looking at the phone with a sort of longing. What should somebody in this situation do, cut all ties, cauterize the broken link that shouldn't have broken in the first place. Ok the metaphor was a little too much. But theres an upside, not really up, but something all the same. I understand all those breakup movies, I understand what people I know have gone through. But it hurts. A lot.

I miss you.


Does letting the other person know what you feel like make you weak?? And whats wrong with being weak?

I should go get a life.

But from where??

And I'm not racist.

Dont think I can write anymore.
Ive loved and lost, a little too much. And fool that I am, I'm taking centrestage and announcing it.

Well it ain't all that wrong to seek attention.

Back to the topic.I should stop writing right about NOW.


Now playing: A Perfect Circle - The Hollow (take 1)

Now Reading : Whatever I'm writing, and have written.

Now Feeling : Haven't I written enough about that.

I really really miss you.

I'm pathetic aren't I.